Tuesday was a productive day. A very productive day. About time, I say!!
My days over the past several weeks have been kinda long and kinda tedious. AND kinda depressing.
I just hate being sick and not feeling energetic.
You know how it is. When you want to get some things accomplished. I can even "see" myself accomplishing much....
But the ability is just not there.
And so...I would just try to keep on pushing...keep on trying.
And then fall back into my nest on the loveseat and "regroup" for a while.
Finally -- I just gave in, stopped fighting the feeling and decided to just "go with it".
Just sitting and "going with it" (when "it" = feeling bad) just goes against everything
in me. BUT, I really sensed the LORD urging me to stop, just stop already!
Do you ever get going so fast, accomplishing so much, checking things off the list so well that you just forget to take care of the most important things first?
Boy, I do!
I guess that is evident when I think back over my activities of the past few weeks.
Lily Kate, my little granddaughter, goes full tilt almost all the time. She is a very busy little girl - full of energy. But recently, Lily Kate has started saying, at the most "inappropriate" times "Hey, let's just sit a minute."
I mean, Dana would be picking her up from school and hurrying out to the car on their way to somewhere else and Lily Kate would ask to "just sit a minute" on the bench outside.
We'd be out playing in the backyard and she'd say "Pie! come here! sit a minute!" and
we'd lay back on the outdoor chaises and just rest -- and discuss things....
the sky, birds, ants, airplanes, trees and the God who made them all --
the REALLY important things.
So cute! But, so perceptive.
Lily Kate sees the value in just sitting and listening and
talking and being still.
And isn't that what I hear the LORD say to me sometimes??
"Gwyn! come here! sit a minute!"
I'm ashamed at how many times I've said "But, I've got a list to check off,
things to do, places to be, people to see."
I believe the LORD will let us run. And let us run at our own crazy pace. BUT He will always, always !! rein us back in when we start putting
other things, other interests, other pursuits
in front of Him.
He is jealous for us!
He desires time with us!
He desires to be the author of our plans,
not just our sidekick.
He desires our fellowship with Him.
He wants to spend quality and quantity time with us - not just a "devo".
I'm very convicted about how busy I can get doing the "fun stuff" and forget about the really fun stuff. How DOES that happen anyway???
SOOOOO - yesterday I gave my day, my self to the LORD. I asked Him for His desires for me that day. I told Him what I felt like I needed to do.
And I listened to what He felt like I needed to do
and together we set some goals.
My Tuesday was blessed so profoundly!
I accomplished so much -- not crazy stuff -- just the things
I actually NEEDED to accomplish
in order to maintain my home (and my sanity).
I would hope and pray this is a lesson learned.
But, experience has shown me -- I'm prone to wander.
The words of this great, old hymn sum it up pretty well and becomes a prayer for my day:
"O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I'm constrained to be!
Let thy grace, Lord, like a fetter,
Bind my wandering heart to Thee.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here's my heart, Lord, Take and seal it,
Seal it for Thy courts above."
(Come Thour Fount of Every Blessing, Robert Robinson, 1758)